.:khalifah dimuka bumi:.

..Assalamualaikum..

arini..overslept..huhuhu..even i wake up early today..but i slept back after i hv my preyer..such a wasting my valueable time..then i also miss tazkiroh today because of golek2 atas katil until 7.45 a.m. then i go to mktb..i suddenly i got a very priceless tazkiroh from mama rozi.she said that Saidina Umar has been asked by his follower..his follower said dat 'Ya Amirul Mukminin...during the day u r very busy with the citizen and manage the country, while during the nite u r very busy with the prayer n ibadah..do u hv the time for urself?'..n Saidina Umar said dat 'durng the day..i hv the responsibility to my country n my people..n during nite i have to fulfill my responsibility to myself by doin the ibadah..i'm very afraid of my responsibility..i didnt dare to been asked about the responsiblity at the padang mahsyar'..when i here it..i very3 touched..i have been wasting of my age..22 years..if i really spend it wisely and accordingly??today i remember of my responsibility..but tomorrow i'll forgot about it..oh man..plz do help me..

then..after class wif mama rozi..i hv a class with Pn. Mahani..once again..i have been 'wake up' of my responsibility towards mom,dad,myself n also my schoolarship..Oh My God..i'm very sinful..ihv forgot of my responsibility..im always wasting my time by doing meaningless things..Yes..pn Mahani is correct..i hv everything..anything dat i want..i'll get it..but how could i study hard n mantain my pointer..every sem..my pointer decline..while other are increased..i know..my mistake..take for granted..i hope..whenever i read dis..i'll remember my responsibility..i'm the caliph of this world..i have the responsibility dat i have to been asked in the Mahsyar..i could i abandon my job as a caliph....

..do advise me..

.:exhausted:.

Assalamualaikum..
long time I haven't anything in my blog..dunno..but I thought its all about laziness..huhuhu..
but now I really need some medium to xpress my feeling..since Rem was far2 away in UK..I haven't have any replacement for my best buddies ever..i swear..Rem..if could read dis..u know how much u mean for me..(neway..thanks Rem for being there for me every time i need u)..
back to my story..at dis time..i really sick n tired of people around of me..dunno why..but Rem always told me..I'm too good..for always thinking of others people feeling n care about other rather than myself..n now..i keep being hurting by others..i never get mad to any people..even..i felt hurt or anger..i keep smiling n give my best if i could to anybody..even at that time i mad with him/her..i really can't xpress my anger to other people..i feel pity or tak sampai hati to scold other people..but..unfortunately..i hv been nice for the wrong person..they never appreciate my kindness..what the things that i get back is just hurting my heart..i just wanna scream..(if i could)..at dis moment..really wanna cry..dunno..frustrated..

personally..today wasn't my good day..i kept being hurt by the people that i always feel dat they r my frens..however..one of them always back stabing me..or perhaps maybe other people want to talk bad about her..dunno...confusing..today..i hv a visit to my former school..n fortunately..they wanna go to the nearest restaurant to hv lunch..however..they were lost on their way..so i willingly tried to help them..however the person that i thought she was my fren..r talked bad about me...she said dat i trying to show off..oh man..if i know u wanna said that..i swear i wont do anything..just kept u lost ur way..i won't mind..serve ur right..i just wanna help..but that the only thing dat i received..felt tear off..

another xcident..also today..i just felt a little bit hungry..so i asked for a small piece of bread..but that girl said i was to lazy to make and bring my own bread..n said that 'oh..u r very hardworking in front of ur boy..u can made him a bread n bring to class..but for ur own..u r lazy to do so'...if u won't give me bread..its ok..i wont mind..but plz..dun ever said like dat..i know dat i was a lazy girl..but..no need for u to say like dat..if i could ever remembered..it was my 1st time asking others food..i never asking for others food..if only if i thought dat u r my fren..its ok..i'll remember ur 'sweet' words till the end of my life..i wont asking any help for u ever..i noe..i was a lazy person..didnt suit to be u fren...thanks 4 everything..u give me a good lesson..never rely on EVEN with the people u thought dat he/she is ur fren..never do it again..thanks buddy..

..really frustrated..
..really upset..
..really tired..

..thanks for all..

.:takdir penentu segala:.

..salam..

according to my planning for this hols..i would to do several things..
wow..my hols..will be very meaningful and colourful with those activities..
hahahah..syoknya.besh3..menda ek aku nk wat cuti ni??ermm..
1)kerja..income3..huhu..bleh la buat some saving for my future life..huhuhu
2)blajaq menjait..amik kursus menjait..jait blouse.jait je ape2..n kalo bleh nk blajo cara mengait ke..oh..my God..i love sewing so much..huhuhu..tp wat crossstich pun bleh tahan gk..uuhuhuhuh..x pun nyulam..wah..next3.
3)bercucuk tanam..errmm..membesarkan pokok bunga mak aku agar sihat dan gemuk..n tanam sayur2..senang mak aku..xpayah g beli kt pasar..just kutip tepi rumah..coz nowadays..sayur bapak r mahal..ariu..penah jugaj cabai idup nek harga smpai Rm10 sekilo..apa cerr..dulu2..masa aku idup kt l'kawi..kitaorg kutip kat kebun je..xpayah beli pun..heheheh..kui3..
4)bc novel..ops..sowi..aku xminat bc malays..except yg mcm mendidik jiwa ke..xpun yg mendatangkan keinsafan..those cinta2 plak..i think..those r rubbish..just a fantasy..just a few je yg bleh merasai idup cmtu..so not so practical..huhuhu..lgpun..bhs melayu ni aku dah faham sgt dah..dah lebey pndai dah..so aku agak xperlukan novel mlayu utk mperbaiki bhs aku..but..heehe..ms spm dulu layan gk aku novel mlyu..sbb nk dptkan words for my writings..pokok melambai2..angin menderu..heheheheh..
5)nk wat sudoku..erm..dah ada 3 buku..tp..xhabih satu pun lg..
6)nk g vacation..
7)jumpa geng aku..

tp..kuasa Allah mengatasi semua perancangan aku..dah Alah lebey mengetahui apa yg baik utk aku..huhuhu..sbb satu pun from apa yg au rancangkan dpt dlaksanaka..tp..ok la..at least aku ada perancangan..huhuhu..erm..cuti kali ni aku byk spend tim for my family..aku kena jd driver, babysitter, tukang kebun, house keeper, mcm2 lah..tp tugas aku paling penting pd cuti kali ni..aku kena jg anak sedara..sbb ummi dia keja..so mak aku jg..jd aku cuti..aku lah amik alih tugas tu..nama dia ct aminah..tp my family panggil dia muthiyah..atau lebey glmer ngn panggilan yah..yah ponggek..hehhehe..comey tp buaih..masya Allah..buiah..nek walker..walker terbalik..merangkak..tugang terbalik jatuh..aih..mcm2..nk tdoq..mcm2 gaya..terkangkang..terbalik kuang..xpayah cita la..huhuhuh..ermm..tp sgt2 comey..geram.huuhu..pastu..ptg2 kena berkebun..huhuhu..kena potong rumput..cabut rumput..trim pokok bg comey n cun..heheheh..kena bwk mak p mana2 dia nk p..huhuhu..p market sudah menjadi kemestian...best gak lepak2 kt market..ada org juai mcm2..heheheh...

.:long time no write:.

salam warahmatullah..

huhu..rasanya dah lama x spend masa utk menaip..even every weekend balik n byk gk cuti2..tp tetap xberkesempatan utk menitipkan sepatah dua ayat dalam blog ni..jgn main2..siap lupa lg password..masyaAllah..huhuhu..sibuk sgt ke??xlah sibuk sgt actually xlah sibuk sgt..but its all about time..hhehehe...sibuk sgt mjadi driver for my beloved mommy..jd baby sitter for my nieces

rindu utk menaip tu ada..tp ideanya belum ada..sbb kalo nk menulih..kena waktu yg panjang..kan3??heheh..sbb bila pk2..byk benda yg aku slalu story adalah mengenai ketidakpuasan hati aku kat org..huhuhu..abah n iki slalu marah aku..
aku asyik ckp org tu xkena..org ni xkena..tp aku pun kdg2 wat salah...so finally..aku pun terus xjadi menulis..huhuhu..n aku terus teringat satu kata2 ni yg aku tgk kt dinding sek keb arau ms aku g school based experience.."manusia selalu berfikir untuk mengubah org lain, namun tidak pernah berfikir untuk merubah diri sendiri"..jd terus mematahkan niat aku utk menulis..so aku telan je lah segala tidak kepuasan hati aku..ataupun..heheheh..aku berleter non stop kt iki..slalunya aku yg tdo lepas 2,3 minit ckp..tp kalo bab nk cerita salah org..smpai 2,3 pagi aku berleter xabih2..heheheh..kesian kat dia..tahan jelah telinga..silap haribulan ngn iki2 kena marah ngan aku..huhuhu..

tp ntah la..dr mana aku bleh perangai mcm ni pun aku xtau..kalo org lain suka shopping..aku rasa semua tu buang masa..budget baik sgt..ntah..kalo bdk girl lain suka baca majalah remaja or bc gosip2 ke..aku plak rasa bek aku bc buku motivasi or men sudoku..yg lg syok..ank sdara aku main2 n ckp la mengenai dunia fantasi depa..aku terus naik angin..aku ckp..kak ijah jgn ckp bohong..maksu cubit mulut stg..ntah..kdg2 kwn aku slalu ckp xdak keja..aku ni berkoyan2 aku pk nk wat mcm2..nk tebas rumput lah..bercucuk tanam lah..kemas rumah lah..bc buku aku yg aku beli tp belum sempat bc lah...buku pinja ngn naem lg..pastu nk g holiday lg..pastu nk g kl tolong abg kemas brg nk pindah lg..nk g rumah kakak kat kepala batas lg..nak tolong mak jg tiyah pongek lg..nk p kelas menjahit lah..wah..mcm2 aku nk wat..kdg2 abah slalu marah aku..xpayah la pk masa akan dtg sgt..yg penting buat dulu apa yg nk wat hari ni..esok pk lain..sbb aku ni mmg slalu berfikir lebey2..pastu kalo duit elaun masuk..aku cukup nyampah budak yg guna duit utk tukar hp bribu2 ringgit lah..beli bj brand lah..beli itulah..blanja awek lah..apalah..bla3..pastu lg 2,3 bln mula r mintak duit kt mak pak..aku ni dah r bela keta aku sbln 300..keta g service nk dkt sratus gak..selang 3 bln..slamba je aku guna duit aku sendiri..siap xpayah mintak duit mak bapak pun..balik kg tiap minggu plak tu..ai..malu aku nk mintak2 ngn mak pak aku..aku rs aku dah dewasa..dah xperlu mintak2 duit..cukup apa yg mak pak aku dah bg..n di sbbkan aku xnk nyusah kan depalah maka aku ngaji pulun2 utk dpt schoolarship..honestly..kalo bkn sbb dpt biasiswa..i'll not choosing teaching as a profession..sbb jiwa aku more on nk jd lecturer rather than teacher..bkn sbb aku pandang rendah ke apa..tp family aku dah byk cikgu..bosan..tapi disebabkan aku dpt offer..so aku pun terima jelah..janji aku xperlu menyusahkan mak pak aku..n alhamdulillah..spjg aku dpt biasiswa ni..mak pak aku dah xpayah susah pk pasai aku..tu yang penting...dah la..ngarut je..

.:kyuem:.

me n ros

ms bangsawan..bj 'ank patung' kat blkg tu mek jah buat..jait tgn tau..

dlm bilik ros ms kt kyuem..muka semua dah berminyak..

mek jah ngn wal

ms bangsawan 2007

me n my 'little sister' who became matured by the experiences

mek jah n I

muscomers 2006/2007





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.:dis week:.

minggu ni macam sedey sgt..ntah la..xpenah aku rasa mcm ni..especially bila balik umah..kalo org first tgk aku mesti kata aku anak sulung..because muka aku macam xdak karekter as adik bongsu..erm..ms ustazah amani tgk sign aku pun dia kata..aku jenis xsuka di manjakan sgt..lebey suka independent..ms kt maahad aku bkn jenis follower tp lebey kpd leader..huhuhu..and honestly aku xsuka bergantung pada org lain..tp still aku tetap manja..kuang3..tp with family n closed fren only..

n berbalik pada cita aku..minggu ni abah ngan mak g kl..utk menguruskan ahmad zahirulhaq(new comer in our family-anak abg) n jg kak lida berpantang..aku plak berbelah bg samaada nak balik ke umah atau x..sbb xdak sapa kat umah..yg ada kak cik..kesian plak dia dok sorg2 ms ngandung..tp suami dia balik minggu ni..aku pk punya pk..mmg kuat rasa nak balik..tambah plak keta aku kena service n lg aku nk wak balik bg abah guna sbb sbe(school based learning) dah abih..aku dah xpayah ke sekolah dah..lgpun skrg musim ujan..aku kesian kat abah..takut terperangkap dlm hujan..sian dia..dah r abah x berapa sgt sihat nya..aku pun right after class..aku pun lepas je hantaq kwn sesekolah aku..aku terus drive balik as..aku pecut sbb dah janji ngan kak cik nk men game kt pasifik..hopefully aku xdpt saman sbb aku bwk lebih 110km/j..heheheh..ms aku on da way kt highway..tok aku call..tok tanya aku kat mana..aku kat highway..pastu tok aku ckp nnti mai rumah ek?mkn umah tok..mak abah kan xdak..pastu tok layuq aku ckp tok wat gulai nangka..lg la aku pecut..aku pun janji nak singgah mah tok..aku smpai kat pejabat k.cik dlm koi 2ptg..n..unfortunately..mesin game tu rosak..huk3..sedey3..aku pun terus ke rumah tok..ada pak cik n family..pak an(datuk) xdak..masih d masjid..mesyuarat..aku pun terus mkn ngan tok..sedop gilo..huhuhu..dok sekejap rehat2 pas solat..pak su n sepupu ku sampai..kak shar,kak nurul ngn ena..erm..pastu tiba2 kak shar nk call abg aku nk wat 3G..nk tunjuk kt tok gmbar baby..erm..tiba2 aku sedey..kak shar ckp ni adik hampa ada kat sini..kesian kat dia..mak,abah ngn abg dia tinggai dia..huhuhuhu..sedey3..ntah..aku sedey..tiba2 aku rasa lonely..xpenah lg aku balik xdak mak abah kat rumah..aku cm nak nangih kat situ..tp aku tahan..aku buat tgk tv n xdgr depa dok ckp ngan abg..pastu aku terus drive balik..n kak cik plak ckp dia malas drive..aku pun tinggai viva kat pasifik n drive keta k.cik balik..bila sampai umah..br aku teringat yg gulai nangka ngan laksa yg tok bg dlm keta..pastu mlm tu aku ngan k.cik n suami dia balik semula ke pasifik utk ambik viva..n aku sempat beli cd lagu2 korea..k.cik plak beli pampers utk baby dia..ms dr pasifik pegi restoran pak tuan..aku dok khusyuk dgr lagu korea..pastu terlanggar menda ntah..pastu ms smpai restoran pak tuan aku cita kt k.cik..dia ngan pak teh ngusik aku ckp aku lalu kt jerat hindu..aku pun takut la..heheheh..ms nk balik umah..aku lalu tempat yg sama..n aku nmpk..rupa2nya kotak lubang air kot..adoi..suspend je..hehehe..yg paling penting..keta aku xcalar..hehehhe..lega den..heheheh..aku balik2..penat aku pun rehat2 kat atas..tiba2 mak aku call..nk ckp ngan aku..aku ckp ngan k.cik aku xmau ckp..aku merajuk..sbb aku balik mak aku xdak..pastu aku ckp kata aku merajuk ngn abah gak..xcall aku pun..heheheh..manja x..pastu ptg kemarin..kakak aku yg sulung plak yg call..ckp nk ckp aku..aku pun xmau..aku merajuk..aku rs sedey..aku rs lonely..sbb besa nya..semua kakak n abg aku n parent akan call aku every week.tp minggu ni..semua sibuk..mak abah sibuk ngan ank sedara br...kakak sibuk jd pengarah utk majlis maulidur rasul kt sekolah..abg busy ngan baby baru..xdak sapa peduli..mesti org ckp aku ngada2 or manja..ntah..suka hatilah..janji..aku mmg mcm tue..ms aku ckp ngan kakak..aku ckp..semua org dah xingat adik kan??kak aku ckp dia ingat tp dia busy..aku kata ye r..semua org dah ada life masing2..kakak,k.cik n abg semua dah ada family sendiri..aku je yg xdak lg..sedey..kak cik yg dgr sedey..dia dah nk nangih..aku pun pujuk dia..k.cik..adik buat2 je merajuk..tp sebenarnya..dlm hati aku mmg sedey..aku masuk bilik terus aku nangih..cm budak2..heheheh..tp aku tau..mmg dah lumrah alam..semua org akan kawen n ada new life..ms mula2 kakak aku yg sulun kawen..aku nangih hari2..ms tu aku baru darjah 6..3 minggu aku xckp ngan dia..aku usaha beli new game..aku asyik main je..tanda protes..aku buat2 busy main..sampai hari kak aku nk balik jordan..baru aku ckp ngan dia..tu pun ms kt airport..dia ckp..adik kak nak pi dah..aku kalih..dia angkat muka aku..aku nangih..aku peluk dia erat..aku gtau..aku rasa mcm aku dah hilang kakak..aku rasa kakak dah x peduli kakak..sampai kakak aku pun nangih..pak su aku pujuk aku..n ms abg ngn k.cik kawen..last yeAr..aku 20thn..aku hari2 nangih kt kyuem..aku rs aku lonely..tp pada hakikatnya aku paham..tp..jauh d sudut hati aku..aku still rs something missing..aku rindu ms aku kecik2..km adik beradik sgt rapat..men jutaria sama2..cite pasai sekolah masing2..men restling lah..g bercuti satu family..aku ada tmpt nk luah masalah..tlg mak sama2 kt dapuq..n..yg paling penting raya sama2..tp..raya last year..sgt terasa..semua raya kt umah mak mentua..aku sedey..aku sgt2 sedey..sgt2 trasa kosong..pg2 raya..besanya k.cik akan ion baju 1 family..kakak ngn mak d dapur..abg plak sibuk gerak aku n siapkan aku..pastu g masjid ramai2..then pg2 raya..bersalam ngn mak abah n kakak,k.cik ngn abg..tp..thn lepas..pg2 raya..aku ion bj abah n mak..aku yg d dapur..n plg penting mak aku xbuat sgt kuih2 n ktupat sbb xdak sapa katanya..pastu abah plak ckp..adik..sunyi kan??aku terus sebak..aku sedey..aku byg mak abah kalo aku d takdirkasn fly..mesti xdak sapa beraya ngn depa..sbb tu aku dah berjanji..by hook or by crook aku akn carik org kedah..senang nk ulang alik..sedey2..huk3..tp..aku tetap jugak cuba tabah kan hati n terima..this is life..